If you want people to believe you.. you are looking for god
If you want people to need you.. you are searching for god
If you want people to believe in what you believe.. you are still seeking god
If you want people to see you.. you have not yet found god.
And if you want people to follow you.. you are getting lost from god.
When you claim any of these are the way for another.. intuitive ones know you are fooling yourself.
Never the less.. your search is a worthy one.
During your search, if you discover that you want to be free of the search.. you could be finding god.