Saturday, December 27, 2008

pomp and circumstance

This made me smile

Someone once told me that magic was all about keeping the viewers eye off the real action by distracting them with something fancy..

Sunday, December 21, 2008


Protectionist dominoes are beginning to tumble across the world

Police break up Russian protests

On Earth we express ourselves as a planet through our financial system.. This is the most global system we have created to date.. So this system is a great place to look at where the planets consciousness is at.

Currently the system is based on false ideas.. Ideas that are not grounded in reality.. Whenever this happens in a system the system cant have integrity and is going to fail at some point.

Here are some of the false ideas:

perma-boom 'growth'
We have it encoded in our system that we must keep growing.. without a constant boom its 'bad'. This is like a cancer that is out of control. This is supposed to be good thing. There is no logic in it.

We must have 'stuff'
So once fixated after perma-boom we then have to belive in must have stuff.. We have to sign up to that religion and believe it will make us happy.. luckily i think that is beginning to change see Why Consumerism Wins

Free trade is good
This is a big lie.. We dont have free trade and we never did.. we lie about it all the time.. the more powerful countries control trade the way they want it and call it free.. its a lie. There are layers and layers of lies in the free trade game and they will take some unpicking.

Our economy will work when we change away from these 'ideas' and reflect a reality based view into the economic system.

When we go for what is 'useful' not arbitrary ideas of growth. This opens up a whole new debate, instead of an arbitrary 'idea' of what is useful, we get on and actually look into it.. There is a real role for politics here.. but not as they are today.

Then we need truly free exchange of what is useful, not one sided systems we call free.

Finally, what is useful is has to be what helps us live a life, not what helps us to run away from the life we are living.. that is exciting.

Its a great thing we are in the midst of, our economy is facing becoming more unified, less controllable, more practical and useful through this 'collapse'.

I dont believe anyone when they say this is bad.. Just tell them to wake up and think about it.

Its a wildfire burning through, but its one that is going to take away the crap and leave what we actually need. Its about time.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Free Will

Free will and control..

We like to think we are in control.. in one sense we are and in another we just are not.

If we think we are our mind.. of course the mind believes it is in control.
If we think we are out body.. we are a victim of it all
If we think we are neither.. we could find out we are neither.. that would blow your mind out and leave a body on a string, floating in some big thing :)

John Sherman.. you cant proove you have free will.. so stop bothering for just and bit and have a look who you are instead..

Sunday, November 30, 2008

presence of awareness

Mr seeker, see if you can find a separate entity that has identified itself as a body, have a deeper look.. on investigation you may find it absolutely absent.

A good old talk on Headlessness


Easily the best talk i found by John Sherman on awareness

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Saviour love

Isn't it a bit weird that we like to own people. Why do we say we love someone and then want them to do what we want them to do. I don't think that can be called loving.

One of the deepest prisons in our world is the saviour lover concept. It is every where you look.. our world is build on this strange life perverting concept. Its in fairy tales, its in love songs its in books its in films. Its in there deep and it keeps you in need.

Everyone seems to be looking to be saved by finding someone, they even call them 'the one' like oh he's not the one i know its not going to last.

And some people have found the one and they seem to be terrified of loosing the one while others just have someone that sort of will do they also seem sad, they demand they do what they want them to do.

And some just do it religoulsly and dont really do people and think they are free.

I find it perverse and really quite strange but most seem convinced this is how to behave.

Forsaken mind

where are these places of magical mind that I have forsaken for totally blind

I feel the soup of a new mystery where we are all children careless and free

Who knows but your toes in a tangerine dream of a world in our image that's so crumbly

I think and I feel and I have an idea that the scene in our making is me oh just me

Thursday, September 25, 2008

The Joker, The Librarian and the Tourist

The Fermi Paradox
The Fermi paradox is the apparent contradiction between high estimates of the probability of the existence of extraterrestrial civilizations and the lack of evidence for, or contact with, such civilizations.

The extreme age of the universe and its vast number of stars suggest that if the Earth is typical, extraterrestrial life should be common. In 1950 while working at the Los Alamos National Laboratory, the physicist Enrico Fermi questioned why, if a multitude of advanced extraterrestrial civilizations exist in the Milky Way galaxy, evidence such as spacecraft or probes are not seen.

Fermi concluded, the Earth should have been visited long ago and many times over.

I hope this is pretty obvious to anyone who thinks about it.

So we are looking for an explanations to the Fermi Paradox.

So one of the following must hold true for the Paradox to collapse

1. There is no such things as ET's

2. All ET's don’t want to be noticed

3. All ET's don’t care and don’t bother knowing anything about the world around them or, 3a variant, All ET's have evolved beyond our conception of society and we cant connect with them in any conceivable way.

4. Or Most don’t care, some do, and some are just passing through.

In my view 4. is the most logical conclusion that can be drawn. These i will call the Joker, The Librarian and the Tourist (i wont be arguing the first 3 as it is obvious)

The Librarian
Any ET civilisation that does have an interest in the world around them will build Von Neumann or Bracewell probes, these self replicating probes are the most rapid and efficient way to map the surrounding universe for any civilisation that cares to.

These I will call Librarian civilisations.

Von Neumann probes
A von Neumann probe is a self-replicating spacecraft designed to investigate its target system and transmit information about it back to its system of origin. Named after Hungarian-born mathematician and physicist John von Neumann, who rigorously studied the concept of self-replicating machines that he called "Universal Assemblers" and which are often referred to as "von Neumann machines".

If a self-replicating probe finds evidence of primitive life (or a primitive, low level culture) it could be programmed to lie dormant, silently observe, attempt to make contact (this variant is known as a Bracewell probe), or even interfere with or guide the evolution of life in some way.

Every Librarian civilisation will have Bracewell probes on our moon and in our system performing a variety of functions.

(The movie 2001 A space Odyssey is about Bracewell probes in our solar system guiding the evolution of man)

Hence the expectation is that out of all the Library civilisations extant, some may want to interferer or 'help' and some may choose only to document.

This leaves Earth as Big Brother House for all the Librarian ET's TV

Some will want to just watch and some will interfere, say vote on 911

I'l do Jokers and Tourists later

Sunday, June 01, 2008


Why is a Therapist a Therapist

I think you become a therapist if you are looking to heal yourself in some way. If you want to be a therapist, i think you are trying to heal what i call an issue of face.

Deeper down you know there is a problem but you don't want to show it on the surface. Becoming a therapist is a great way to address this.

To the outside world you are a therapist so you must be ok, on the inside world you can learn about the type of issue you are really trying to fix in yourself by 'helping' everyone else who has that problem, and wants to talk about it to you. It works very well if you have a face issue and want to work on healing what is behind the face in a faceless way.

In this respect all forms of therapy can be thought of as manipulative.

Well, that is OK because someone is coming to a therapist because they want to get 'fixed' of course they want to be manipulated and they will pay for it.

So to use a therapy term, therapy is based on a co-dependence relationship between the therapist and the client. The therapist gets to manipulate the client, pretending they are the well one, and the client gets to pay the therapist and pretend they are the sick one.

So in this game the client has become well when they realize they don't need to see a therapist and the therapist has become well when they realise they don't need to be a therapist.

Monday, May 05, 2008


Something I enjoyed reading today:

"The difference between a mature human being and a child is that a child is always quite sure of how things ought to be. They are quite clear the way life must be, should be, has got to be, and if it isn't, they get very fussy.

A mature human being finally comes to the realization that quite a few things are just how they are. They can relax and function amidst life's imperfections without the need to be recognized or to condemn. Life is not perfect. Have you ever met the child who doesn't want the gold star? It is a child's perspective. In order to move through life and become mature, one realizes that what happens in life is that people are different. This realization is not just in terms of other people, but also ones self and life's events.

A mature human being can forgive people. They can accept that people have limitations, and they do what they can. A child can not. Children want things done according to their wishes. Because that's how they get their place in the world."

Extract from An Informal Discussion on Taoist Meditation by Bruce Kumar Frantzis

Link to full article

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Sins of the father

In our society traditional male/female relationships often exhibit these patterns.

Obviously these are big generalizations. But there is a common thread in our society..

Male Female relationships often have the female looking for deeper emotional connection with the male holding distance.. getting buried in work/football etc. What is this all about ?

When kids arrive the mother will find a new emotionally devoted male in her son and use this as a surrogate male emotional relationship. This is not healthy but is often the case.

What this in turn does for the son is have him grow up with him thinking that women are providers of deep emotional support. Because his mum over coddled him, the man does not learn to be emotionally self sufficient, he has been emotionally castrated and he expects emotional guarantee in his relationships from weomen.

All of this stops a man being able to really risk his emotional feelings in a relationship. He is used to the female emotionally compensating for him and in fact being subservient in this respect.

I believe this is often why men can be subtly nasty to weomen in their power. In the work environment men can gang up on a women if this threat is apparent. The women starts reflecting the mans weakness and pain in this area. Unfortunately most women just oblige and compensate again to keep the status quo.

The pattern is set for the next generation.

This pattern also has a manifestation on the father daughter side.

The less emotionally available father will have the daughter reaching out for this connection. As the father does not just 'show up' the daughter can develop tactics to extract the attention.

(this can setup conflicts with the mother as the daughter can get better at this than the mother so the mum just gives up and gets it from the son as daughter extracts it from dad)

When the daughter gets to puberty. The daughters sexual energy turns on and is then directed at dad, dad is completely freaked out and is even less capable of providing any sort of useful mirror for his daughter. He is scared about being a pedophile, incapable and scared of going into how he feels, he is not able to allow, and reflect that his daughter is attractive to him.

This is the safe mirror she needs from an emotionaly mature father, but he cant hold it for her so she reaches out even more.

When he continues to run away, the daughter gives up and then goes out into the world looking to 'get' this from man in general.

Because she has not had the boundary set by dad she can become oversexualised toward men, reaching out tying to get connection though sex via a man.

Not grounded in the fact that she is a totally whole sexual being without having to have sex, getting sex has become the only way to get this identity. But it does not work.

No relationship will satify the needs.

In the end the only way to guarantee the need is to have a son and get the emotional/sexual energy from him..

And so the cycle continues.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

The tapestry and the tao

Read this today and liked it:

"When the fabric of our relationships is spun of openness, love and trust, then in the silence between words the tapestry is made complete"

I like to look as relationships as 'network' or 'graph' (as in node graph) phenomena, this is why people uses metaphors like 'web' and 'tapestry' to describe them.. (but really they are multidimensional networks not 2d webs or tapestries)

parties to a relationship are nodes in the network, and a network can experience complex fluxes through itself.

So to me this is talking about a natural order of relationship rather than an imposed forced structural one. The natural network, will support and allow the flux that is present by virtue of its parties, the parties to this will be happy. The forced network is imposed by a more external powerful influence, to achieve the flux dynamic the influence is after, this wont necessarily make the parties happy as it does not respect their individual nodal contributions.

The silence between words represents the unity flux of the network.. a unique expression of the network left to flow and balance its own tune.

This can not be predicted or controlled, but it can be felt by all who take part.

So the Tao could be described as the natural network flux of all relational things past present and future

From the Tao Te Ching:

"The tao that can be told
is not the eternal Tao.
The name that can be named
is not the eternal Name.

The unnamable is the eternally real.
Naming is the origin
of all particular things.

Free from desire, you realize the mystery.
Caught in desire, you see only the manifestations.

Yet mystery and manifestations
arise from the same source.
This source is called darkness.

Darkness within darkness.
The gateway to all understanding."

Tuesday, April 01, 2008


Do you need rules to live by ?

I dont think so..

Rules are for robots of personality

A personality robot you makes choises from habit or because you are supposed to or because others expect it of you.

But a you you will just choose what makes you happy.

How else are you supposed to get beyond the illusory tangarine of this funny old world ?

So rules, shoulds and expectations are for the lost personality robot person.

Do you want to be you you or do you want to be a personality robot..

At least if you want to be you you.. there are no rules.. other than what makes you happy.

So you can be happy then..

If you want to be..

Start ignoring your rules..

Friday, February 22, 2008

security over love :(

Today i got a little sad because i realised something..

I realised that nearly everyone i know had made a choice, and that choice was nearly always the same one..

Everyone seems to chose security over love.. now dont get me wrong, i dont think this is a bad thing..

But it does make me feel a little sad.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Clever Science

Those clever scientists have just figured out that if you are healthy you live longer !

Healthy living 'can add 14 years'